this thought comes to mind...

i'm sitting here today...
a usual sort of day.
got up early, and one of the first things i do is look at the sky.
i love seeing the colors in it, you know.
and catching the glimpse of the sun coming up,
as it does everyday...
but since it is one of my favorite parts of the day...
i look always, and expect something i've never seen before.
and now that it's been a few hours since the sun has come up,
and it's gotten a bit hotter, and a little cloudy...and the breeze has disappeared completely...which, i have to be honest, since i work outside, is a total bummer :)
anyways, at one point this morning, while i was trying to decide whether or not i had the energy and gumption to run a few miles...i was doing my usual look out the window, and the sky was fantastic...i thought to myself...'i should grab my camera and take a few pictures of this sky, it's amazing'...so amazing, in fact, that it made me physically sigh and smile, all at the same time, thinking how wondrous it is to have this lovely view, each and every morning.
but, being that i was in the middle of this whole decision process of 'to run or not to run'...i moved around my apartment a bit, for just a couple minutes...and the next look i did out my window...the sky had completely changed and that color that was so breathtaking before, was gone...
just that quick!
as i look back at this inconsequential moment of mine this morning,
it reminded me of the fact that life is just like this, isn't it?
in constant change.
what is there one minute...can be totally different, the next.
i guess that's why they say it is important to live right here, right now.
because we really don't know what's up next, do we?
we can always hope though...and always dream...and strive to accomplish things...
but all the while knowing that the world is turning,
and things are changing,
the sun is coming up, and going down,
the moon is phasing constantly,
friends, family, and lovers are walking in and out of our lives,
and here we are, looking out the window,
trying to decide whether or not to take a picture,
or walk out the door and be right in it,
or read about it,
and maybe even join in and be a part of that change,
in our own lives,
but in others as well.
so many choices right?
the choice that seems to be showing itself to me constantly, in my life,
is the choice to let go.
i have to admit, which i've admited, oh so often...
not my strong suit.
i always think i can work my way through anything.
i think to myself, 'positive, strong, and loving'...
everything else will work itself out.
but then i don't listen, and i work...nose to the grindstone and all. haha!
one of my friends told me the other day that i just have to trust, and i mean trust deeply in the universe...that answers come...right when they're supposed to.
and everything will be as it should.
hmmmmmmmmmmmm...
there are so many unknowns in this world,
but that's the excitement, the mystery, the fun...
of seeing, of learning, of understanding.
god, it astounds me to think that my little circle of life is hooked on and part of all these other little circles of life...
and we're all walking along, intertwined,
like the kudzu on the side of I-95, driving up through georgia.
constantly growing and constantly changing,
whether you're paying attention or not.
that's the thing though, isn't it?
we have to pay attention...who wants to miss those perfect colors?
i don't know about you,
but i don't want to miss a thing.