Sunday, December 21, 2014

just around the corner...

just around the corner...
Christmas...
and a brand spanking new year...
wow...
the older I get, the quicker it all seems to go by...
when you're young...
you constantly hear that lil line...
and you shove it off, and laugh, thinkin, 'those oldsters, they don't know anything'...
yep...
they kinda do...
and hell...
I am now probably, by many, considered one of the oldsters...
haha...
well...for sure by the people that I work with...
they're all, just young guys between the ages of 18 and 30...
days gone by for me.
oh well...
i'm realizing more and more how lil that age number matters.
funny enough, I still think i'm around 27 or so...
especially when I hear my favorite song on the radio or Pandora...
automatically, there's loud singing and most likely some dancing happening, depending on the song...
yes, mam, there is...
music...yep...it's part of your soul...it's part of your heart.
I also get that feelin of youth when playin just about anything...
all the world around you, all your problems, all those damn stresses of life, just fall away, like crumbling cookies when you've ransacked the that hallowed jar of oreo's or figgies...
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
that feeling that all is right in the world.
all that shit we worry over...
the bills...work...goals...relationships...family...money...love...health...
or lack there-of...to all of it.
when you're in the midst of that song...or are running down a Frisbee, catching it behind your back...hittin the perfect drive down the fairway...spinnin as hard and as fast as you can...
all of those things...those worries...those problems...
they just fall away, if only for those instant moments.
god, those moments are so damn nice...
when you forget it all.
and just live.
simple and easy.
it's what life is meant to be, but somehow, and some way, we tend to make it so much harder than it needs to be.
whether it be by trying too hard, thinking too much, or just not knowing how to let go.
it should definitely be more simple.
the cool thing about all of it is that even during those moments that we are having difficulty, with whatever it is, that it only lasts a certain amount of time.
it is just temporary.  bad and good.
we can survive.
we will make it through.
the sun comes up every day.
every damn day. (well, except today...being it rained most of it...but you get the gist)
and the moon has soooooooooooooooooooooo many phases.
one of my absolute favorite parts of nature and of life...those phases...yep.
it kinda makes you know that life is moving forward...always...
and no matter what we do or don't do...it will continue to move forward.
we can try and stand still and hold out for whatever it is we are waiting for...
but whether we like it or not...life keeps rolling....and we have to keep walkin with it.
the truth of all of that is...from where I stand...life is good.
it may not be understandable somedays...a lot of days, for that matter...
but that in no way means we should stop tryin to figure it out and maybe try and understand as much as we can.
learning and growing should never cease, no matter our age.
it's kinda part of the beauty of life as well...
seeing stuff  we've never seen...feeling things we didn't know possible...learning something when we thought we knew all there is to know...knowing ourselves more deeply and more genuinely than we ever thought we'd want to...and letting ourselves be vulnerable when the fear of losing it all is almost something you can taste, but you do it anyway.
yes...that is something more beautiful than any words I can type on this page.
I've decided that there are so many more possibilities in this life time that even at this moment, we don't know them, but they will come to us, like a breeze or a flash of lightning or a raindrop (something that simple, but that complex can change your life in an instant)...
and there we are...
in the midst of it...
it's our choice at that moment...
to go with it and see what can become...
or run like hell, the other way to something safe, away from danger, fear, and hurt.
i'd like to think that one day, i'll be less fearful of that flash...
that maybe i'll stand firmly and say, 'bring it on, i'm ready, I can take it'...
so, here's my thought...
maybe in this new year, we can hang up those running shoes (proverbial running shoes, of course...because as we know, exercise, well, it's an essential part of life and love and the pursuits of happiness...and i'm not joking at all about that...haha)...
but yes, hang them up...maybe throw on some spikes or cleats, and dig in...
and face that shit, head on...
slap our fucking fears in the face and watch them cry.
I, for one, am exhausted at the amount of things I worry over, I think about obsessively, and run from constantly.  screw that.
let's stand up and say, 'whatever it is you've got, i'm way bigger, and I can take you'...
as those youngsters say...like a boss ;)