Thursday, June 24, 2010

first timers fear...

well, since setting this up yesterday, i've been sorta racking my brain to write the most amazing first blog ever...
then i realized this morning, that most likely, i just need to write, and let what comes out, come out.
wasn't sure whether or not i should do a little intro of myself...tell about my life...where i'm coming from...or...where i've been...
then again, if i'm lucky enough to have anyone read this a time or two...
that will probably be a learned thing, through what i put on these pages, eh?
instead of revealing my life story the first day...
maybe i should take some time, and tell it slowly.
mostly, i'm the kind of person who wakes up in the morning with a thought in my head, and that is the day that i sit down and write.
and yes, i've been warning people for years now, that this is what i was going to do...and now that it's here, and i'm sitting in front of my computer, p.j.'s still on, sleep in my eyes, cafe con leche by my side...and
i'm scared that i may have nothing to say.
but as several of my friends know...there's always something brewing up inside this brain of mine, and hopefully, this is something i can throw out to you as well.
i'll leave you with this...
i've discovered recently, in my life, that a change of perspective from any situation that you are in, can truly alter how you feel, how you look, how others treat you, how you view each day that comes to you, and how you appreciate it all, in the grand scheme of things.
whether it be through an actual change of scenery, or a new job, or the simple luck of meeting a new person...anything really...
so, i was thinking that maybe that's one of those things in life that we have to remind ourselves about...
that things that we go through in life...good and bad...
they are just temporary.
and that if we can just keep changing our perspective and learn new things from it...that we can make it through just about anything.
that it is true, that we are in a huge way, in control of our own destiny...
even if crazy ass things happen to us along the way!
which they do, without a doubt.
the only hard time i have with that, is that if everything is temporary...then that good stuff thats going down in our lives...that has to end too? hmmmmmmm...
i'm not sure how to feel about that (you know that saying 'all good things must come to an end'?) i'd kind of like to fight that part, myself, i'm not gonna lie to you...because at this moment in my life...so much good is happening...i just don't even know what to think!
and the truth is...all we can do is try to be the best version of ourselves that we can possibley be...make good choices...don't hurt others or at least own up to our mistakes when we make them and apologize with heart...live life as clean as we can...be true to who we are...speak honestly in regard to our feelings...and love with effin scarily crazy wild abandon.
so, either way...whatevers going on...good and bad...pay attention...be aware...appreciate it all!
with each breath, life changes.
roll with it, and love it.
because the next moment will be different.
and there's just another bit of good or bad,
waiting to say hello...
wondering how you will act and react.
what a wild ride eh? :)

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