Saturday, August 28, 2010

of this i'm sure...well...maybe

so, it's been about 3 weeks since my last blogpost...
and i have to be honest...i've been pretty much, running around,
doing everything else, but write.
now i sit here, in a hotel room...
with my parents...
and have decided that this is the time to catch up.
maybe a good idea...maybe not...
i have no clue.
but i will tell you this...
because this happens to be something i know...
life is one constant surprise after another.
this summer for me...has been chock full of them.
ranging from driving across the country in my little cube,
finally feeling alive in my heart again,
finding out about brain tumors,
lucking out with scoring a place on the beach,
losing 15 lbs of beer weight (thanks p town),
realizing that it was totally possible to do wheel pose,
and feeling the best i've felt in about 6 years!
in and amongst all of that i've learned a great lesson of faith in people and in destiny.
right places at the right time kinda thing.
you know how they say that people come in and out of your life for different reasons? some stay for the long haul...and some are just there for a quick visit...some you're sad to see go...and then some, fade away as if they were one of those little holographic ghosts in the haunted mansion ride at disney.
of course, there are the one's that are in between that as well...they show up here and there...like no time has past you by, and you pick up right where you left.
anyways, i digress, for sure...
i mentioned at the beginning of this post that i'm in a hotel room...
well...let me explain...in south carolina...moncks corner, to be exact...
for my niece's wedding.
weddings always bring me back to thinking about that one thing...
yeah...
you guessed it...
love, baby :)
and no, i'm not going to ramble on today about having it and finding it and hoping it stays...
i'll just say this...which, believe me, i realize at this very moment, i'm completely all over the place...because, honestly, my life has seemed that way lately...and my heart too! haha!
i actually just wanted to share a few things i've heard and i've read as of late, that made me think how sweet, amazing, and astounding that love can be...or how it makes people say and write the most beautiful words, with power and grace.
i kinda love that...a lot, i'd have to admit!
the power of words is always stopping me in my tracks!
it truly is!
the thing is...with all the words...
must come actions the walk along with them...
or they don't mean anything at all, do they?
that's the part we all have to remember when being in love, or giving love, or sharing love...
that there's this action part that goes hand in hand.
right on!
if we can do that...then life as we know it would change...wouldn't it?
in every single realm and fiber of our being!
wow!
anyways, so i'll share these things i've heard and tell you where i heard them...
but the problem is...
there's so much more to share too! all these little dog eared pages i have! haha! they're everywhere!
kinda like love, eh? it's pretty much everywhere you look if you're paying any attention.
i know, i know...a rambling fool...but the truth of all of that is...i'd rather be thought a fool...hands down...if it's in the case of love and life.
here are my little blurbs of love...

from julie and julia..."you're the butter to my bread, the breath to my life"

how beautiful and luscious that is! it could be for the simple fact that i love both of those, bread and butter. but something so intimate as butter to bread, if you've ever had the luck of having fresh, hot bread in your hand, and putting butter across it, and watching it melt into the bread, as they become one...hmmmmmmmmmmmm...now that's a beautiful thing :)

from loving frank..."ongi mia fibra. e'posseduta dall'amor"...translated~my every fiber is possessed by love~ taken from the opera 'mefistofele'

my every fiber is possessed by love! that itself can take your breath away! and love is just that way isn't it? once it hits you...it's the only thing you can think, feel, and yearn for! like it's in your veins! sit back and think about how it has made you feel in your life...that first realization that you're in love with some one...now that's some kind of overwhelming feeling...one that walks with you, throughout your day!

and i have to be honest with you, whoever is reading this...
i really don't know why i'm writing this or even if any of it makes any sense...
but you know...sometimes you just have to sit down and write...and well...this is what is coming out today.
i'm hoping that some of it makes some sense or hits home...just a little, at least.
i'm in constant thought of how some of the things i read or hear or see...are things that would be awesome to hear another person say or feel or see in you (or me, as the case may be)
you know, those kinds of things that make you sigh just a little bit, and smile as well.
like, 'hey, this is what life is all about' right?

i'll leave you with this...'arrestati, sei bello' ~stay, for you are so beautiful~
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...the things that would sound like music to our ears :)
to our lives.
and change them forever.

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