Sunday, September 12, 2010

ahhhhhhhhhh...sunday afternoon...

so, basically, i'm sitting here, after an amazing yoga class,
with a girl that defines the meaning of sunshine and grace,
and i feel comfortabley numb...in the best way possible.
every toxin i possibley had in my body before class...
has been left on that mat, that floor, and those yogi toes.
wow!
so as i sit here and contemplate the day and pretty much the weekend as well,
i find myself thinking a lot of different thoughts about my life...
how i'm living it and breathing it.
and what i'm taking with me,
and what i'm leaving behind.
i'm generally an over-analyzer of all things in my life.
trying to find the deeper meaning in a look,
a comment,
a gesture...
pretty much anything.
it can have it's downfalls, for sure...
because sometimes i end up worrying about things that shouldn't be worried about...
but then it also is a good trait because i'm aware of a lot that's going on around me too.
the way i have to deal with this overanalyzing brain of mine,
is that i have to laugh myself off sometimes...
like literally tell myself...'honey, what in the world are you doing?!'
'why are you being such a goof?!'
or
'relax, and let it go...it's gonna be okay'
there is something that is built in each and every one of us...
that tells us what's going on, without even asking the other person.
our intuition is such a strong thing sometimes...
that it can be quite overwhelming to realize that the feelings that project off of other people...we can read...
like there's some crazy internal language that our bodies are talking to each other, without opening our mouths.
there are many times though...
we fight that intuitive feeling and talk ourselves out of believing in it...
like we don't believe in ourselves and what our body is telling us.
that faith that we need to get us through anything and everything.
it's right there...
inside of all of us.
calmly, we should listen to it.
and take it in.
this is much easier said than done, most assuredly...
but the moment we begin to believe in ourselves...
the truth that is within each of us...
that moment...
could be the moment...
that a new life begins for us...
a new version of who we are.
true to ourselves and true to those around us.
from our most beloved friends and family,
to our co-workers,
to complete strangers.

"as the layers of falsehood fall away, an intimacy develops with our own truth. ultimately our truth becomes all there is. truth becomes our essence and our reality, our deepest desire, and the air that we breathe." ~from meditations from the mat~

if perhaps we look deeper at ourselves,
and become more truthful in our speech,
in the way we live,
in the way we love,
and the way we believe...
this could be that change...
that makes everything change around us...
and the truth becomes,
that good thing,
that makes each of us act greater,
with more kindness...
to each other.
i guess that means that we just have to make a better effort,
in believing in who WE are,
which in turn may make it easier to believe in those around us too.
there's this things we do in yoga class...
that as we are in tree pose...
hands outstretched to the sky...
eyes gazing upwards...
we reach for the hand of the person on either side us,
and close our eyes...
and basically, hold each other up...like a chain of help.
we have to trust in ourselves and in those around us in this life.
after all...what would life be without trust,
without faith,
without love,
without hope?
i can't even imagine it.
i don't even want to imagine it.
i say to myself each day,
'be positive, strong, and loving...everything else will take care of itself.'
each of us have our own truths.
live them.
without fear.
and believe in them.
without fear.
'to thine own self be true'

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