one of those days...

i'm getting the feeling, more and more lately...
that i truly have no idea of the splendor that is hiding behind each turn of my life.
this has been one of those kinds of days where...
it could be the best day of your life...
and, then again...it could be one of the worst.
as it turns out...
as the fates would have it.
my family and i had a 'best day of our life' kinda day.
when you're having one of those days...
you're in the midst of it,
hoping for good things, cringing when anything seems just a little off, and looking for signs that you may or may look for very normally.
we sat for hours today, staring at the walls, staring at each other, trying to sleep, trying to occupy ourselves with reading, watching the constant idiotic stream of the television, wondering what in the world is wrong with mel gibson and his exploding rose garden (that was for you j), and all the while, in the back of our minds, wondering what destiny was going to bring our way today.
the strange part about life is that,
we're here on this earth,
living it,
right next to all of these strangers,
sometimes minding our own business, and sometimes getting involved.
either way...
somehow, one life touches another,
and we witness these things in grand amazement.
feeling emotion for a person next to you,
that you've never even seen before in your life.
but there you are...
in the same waiting area...
feeling, most likely...
the same feelings.
but knowing each of our destiny's is different...
even if it's in the smallest of ways.
maybe it could be compared to a snowflake...
that as much as we look alike from a distance, upon further examination...
there are intricate and delicate differences,
which make us who we are and who we are to become.
i've been thinking a lot lately about faith.
it's one of my struggles, most definitely, in this life.
the letting go of thinking at all that we have control over anything else besides ourselves and our actions, and sometimes even then...i seem to lose it. haha!
and well...
as much as i preach about believing and loving and destiny,
it's still hard to open my hands up,
let go,
and know that it will all be okay...
either way, and no matter what.
that the events that happen in our lives,
are synchronized somehow into this crazy, big ben like, clock...
ticking away in perfect rythmn.
and the bell tolls in order to remind us to pay attention.
to wake up.
to live life.
in this exact moment.
right now.
no excuses.
no questions asked.
love hard. love strong. love big.
because each moment that you are here...
should be lived, as wildly and as passionately as you can.
being an athlete all my life...there's a thing you think about when you play...
you want to play so hard...that there's nothing left in you, when you walk off the court, field, pool, whatever.
you want to leave it all out there.
well...
that's how life and love should be...
when we look back at it...
we should have left it all out there.
without regret and with a smile on our face.
teary eyed, sweat stained, bruised and tired...
and completely satisfied...
that we've done everything we wanted to do.
without fear.